My Sad Little Cuddle Bug

I've heard from other moms before about how a sickness can transform even the most energetic and rambunctious child to a small quiet baby, who just wants to be cuddle. Not that our Chase doesn't enjoy being carried around in our arms, but she is definitely one determine little baby and always wants to stretch her independence when awake. But last night in the hospital was different. She was so incredibly exhausted from all the throwing up she'd been doing, and, perhaps in an attempt to shield her eyes from the hospital bright lights, nuzzled in. I always love those fleeting moments after she finishes her night nursing and just lays her little head on my chest and lets me fill my lungs with her sweet baby smell. I'm guilty of lingering a little too long before putting her back down in her crib since she starts to sleep through the night occasionally. Last night in the hospital, she fell asleep in my arms and we sat up together for hours in a naked hospital bed, whose sheet was soiled from her upchucking. Then today she fell asleep with me on the couch for the first time in months. With her soft little body laying on my chest, I couldn't help but getting a little sad that those first three months that she would only sleep if she was on either my chest or Wil's couldn't last for all eternity. I wouldn't have gotten anything done or taken a shower again ever but it would still be worth it. Is it weird to miss your baby even though she's sleeping in her room that is only 10 feet away?